I was just sitting here trying to figure out how to say this.....the procedure worked and I am pregnant. While I am pregnant right now I won't be for long. My levels are not going up which means there is a 90% chance of miscarriage. I knew there was a high likelihood of this happening but I guess like this whole process I kept thinking "that won't happen to me". I go back to the dr tomorrow morning to find out for sure but as of right now it's not looking good. Your HCG levels are suppose to double every 48-72 hours, mine did at first. Now I have only gone from a 72 to an 84 over the entire weekend.
Of course Wilson knows but I haven't told my Mom yet. She is so excited. Last Friday she bought a pink bouncer. She called me yesterday and asked me how I was feeling but I just didn't have the heart to tell her so I lied. She will be back on Thursday so I will have to tell her then. I just can't figure out how to break her heart.
You just wouldn't think that something you have only known about for three weeks would hurt this bad.
I'm sorry to bring down the room but I wanted to let you know since you all are in this with me now :-)
As you can imagine I am not really in the mood to talk about it yet, just trying to absorb the situation myself. I keep telling myself “at least we got this far” and “next time” but…
I will let you know how things go on Wednesday.
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